Monday, October 26, 2009

Pigs ARE flying all around and I am going halfway across the world without my husband and baby!

October 26, 2009
Watch out guys, pigs ARE flying all around and I am going halfway across the world without my husband and baby! Can you believe it? God has put this incredible and unexplainable burden in my heart to go love and hug on orphans. Su Cheng and I will be making this journey to New Delhi, INDIA together. We will be going sometime during the second half of January 2010 depending on ticket prices, work schedules, God’s timing and such.

We will be staying at one of the 90 HOPEGIVERS International orphanages in India. The particular one we will be staying in is in Rahasthan and is one of the largest homes in India with approximately 4,000 boys and girls ages 4 to 14. Hopegivers International, a faith-based, non-profit organization that is both non-governmental (NGO) and 501(c) 3 tax-exempt, exists to provide "help for today and hope for eternity." They rescue abandoned and orphaned children from lives of poverty and suffering in India, Malawi, and Haiti and then give them a chance to grow up as boys and girls who have the JOY and hope that comes from knowing Christ!

While we are there we PLAN on possibly teaching some of the young ladies of the bible college, painting the living quarters and showers of the orphanage, painting 2,000 little girls fingernails, teaching them a couple of dramas, songs and games, maybe some arts and crafts, but most of all, we plan on giving all of who we are to these boys and girls, whether it be serving meals, braiding hair, swinging them in circles, piggy back rides or great big bear HUGS, we will give our ALL.

Our GOAL is to raise as much money for the orphans of India as we can. We have a few ideas of how we will do it. I have designed (with the help of my little artists from kiddos church) some stationary we are trying to sell in time for the holidays as well as a 2010 calendar. All of the profit will be going directly to the orphans. We also will be holding a “salt wash” car wash in December pending there is a snowfall before then and again, all of the profit will be going directly to the orphans.

The money that we are going to send over can go so FAR….
$2 per kid for good flip-flops
$5 per kid for shoes
$10 per kid for clothes
$250 for washing machines
$250 for a bunk bed, mat, pillow and sheets
$300 for a love feast for the kids, that includes chicken and sweets etc
$600 for simple pump well
$2,000 for a drilled well and good water (which is much needed)
$17,500 can build a small children’s home for about 15 kids

We also would like to take some items over with us i.e. TOOTHBRUSHES, crayons, stickers, candy, or whatever we can take over for all of the kids.




I know you are dying to know how can you help? I am GLAD you asked. There are so MANY ways. Here are a few:

· Prayer. Prayer. Prayer.
· Donations of the above mentioned supplies.
· Prayer. Prayer. Prayer.
· Let the #1 item on your Christmas shopping list be the stationary we are selling or the 2010 calendar. (All of the profit goes to the orpahns.)
· Prayer. Prayer. Prayer.
· Let us wash the salt off your car in December.
· Prayer. Prayer. Prayer.
· Donate money toward the cost of our tickets, train rides, and other misc. travel cost.
· Come to India with us! It’s not too late.
· Oh yes, and there is more prayer!


I will be updating my blog regularly with updates on our JOURNEY preparations. If you are not already following it, please check it out. http://adayinthelifeoflor.blogspot.com/ . I am sure our access to internet will be limited once we get there but we will be sure to update it again when we get back.

If you do feel COMPELLED to give, (notice I did not say pressured), you may send your donations to the Tapestry Church and just put how you would like the money distributed in the memo line. Of course the Tapestry is a 501(c) 3 tax-exempt organization.

THANKS for reading this!
THANKS for praying for India!
THANKS for considering helping!



LORI Hedrick
lorihedrick@tapestrychurch.org


I cannot not GO.
I cannot not LOVE.
I cannot not GIVE.
I HAVE to go.

Father of the FATHERLESS and protector of widows is God in his holy habitation.
Psalm 68:5

Tapestry Church PO BOX 2394 Kensington, MD 20891

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

An invitation to Dinner

Dustin entered a contest with 95.1 SHINE FM. The name of the contest was "Love at first sight, second date night". He invited me to dinner and I got a call from Tracy from the morning show and she told me Dustin had entered this contest and invited me to dinner. She then read me his invitation and told me that we were having a Private Chef come out to our house and fix us a meal. I am so proud to be married to my wonderful husband!

Here is his letter to me....

Lor,

You really need to know something that I literally say every day right after we pray. I want to take a moment to be loud and proud of the fact that I LOVE YOU!!!!

I love you deeply with my whole life. When I said "I do," I meant it. Not only did I, but I still DO!

Nine years have made everything so much more exciting and such an amazing journey. I mean, it's not just one thing you have done, but every single small thing that you do. It's the way you remember the little things in life, the way you look at our baby, the way you leave the door cracked, the way you call just to see how I am, the way you love our baby church plant, the way you care for others, the way you serve, the way you live, the way you give to anyone, the way you want to love on orphans, the way you smile at me when we are across a room. You know, my heart still jumps. Funny huh?

It's every little thing you do that reminds me the love I have for you! I see Jesus' love in you. I cannot imagine what my life would have been like without you. Every breath, every step, every move, every motion, you make it all magic. You amaze me in so many ways.

Lor, I do. I do again and again and again. I still remember the way my heart lept as I saw your face, the very face that Poppa had placed in my dreams. I could not believe you said I do. And yet it all started with a "Hey, I'm Dustin..." And then the rest was history.

I was supposed to write this letter to simply ask you out on a date, but I could not pass up the chance to sing your praises for just a moment. I mean, you need to know that I am your biggest fan. So, with that said, I want to once more say, my love for you today is greater than when we first met, than when we first dated, than when I asked you to marry me and I would never trade any of those moments for the world. I would never want to go back for anything in the world, but I just wondered if you would like to have a "first date," "first moment," kind of night. I mean, I think these days are my favorite so far, but I think it would be fun to take a night and go on a special romantic date remembering how it was.

I would. I love you so much. It's is so amazing to get the chance to live my every day with my best friend, partner in ministry and most of all, my one true love. I am so VERY BLESSED! I love seeing you every night and every morning. And I want to celebrate you for a night.

So, whatta ya say? You wanna go out or something?

Thursday, September 17, 2009

I have a story!

This past Sunday, during Dustin’s sermon, he was sharing some amazing stories of how God came through in impossible situations and after church, I told Dustin that I would like it if God could give us some amazing stories today and he said that God does, every time he goes to Kenya. I said that I was meaning, here in our everyday lives, more specifically, in MY LIFE! He said to just pray.

Earlier that morning, we had discussed my grocery list. I asked him how much I could spend at the store that afternoon. He told me $45. $45 did not sound like enough to get everything in my list and I had asked him if there was any other money I could use. He said no, that was all we had and that I should just figure out what basics I could get and everything else on the list would have to wait till he got paid later. In my heart I knew he was right, we have given a lot of money away to different causes, countries and our calling and I knew we were tight but my head was telling me their had to be just a little more. $45 was not going to allow me to get any meat. I pressed the issue one more time with Dustin with no luck. $45 was all I had and it was cash at that, so I couldn’t even go over a little bit on a card or anything.

God was going to have to help me with this shopping trip. Not only was he going to have to help me with the shopping trip, he was going to have to help me cook this week. With only having $45 to spend, meat was out of the questions. What was I going to cook this week for dinner? And I was going to have to submit in my heart to my husband and trust him. Wow, trust my husband and trust God and not rely on my own understanding?!? Well let me tell you how it went.

I had a coupon that was $10 if you spend $50. Mind you I only had $45 cash so I was carefully sticking to my list. Diced tomatoes were on sale for $.67. That is a fantastic deal. I was going to buy 10 and save a dollar on top of that. As I pulled the cart up to the canned tomato section, there was a large empty spot on the shelf. All of the diced tomatoes were gone. #1 I really needed the tomatoes. #2 I really needed the tomatoes at that price. #3 Now my calculations were going to be off by $6.70 and I had to find something that would cost roughly $6.70 to replace it. I am sitting there staring at the shelf, as if my staring would make them appear and it was as if God spoke to me and said “Lori, hun, look. You can get a rain check and get as many tomatoes as you wish next time you go to the store for the same price.” What a blessing. I was able to get AB fresh grapes and tomatoes and if you know AB you know how much she loves that.

I ended the shopping trip very successfully. The trip cost $43 and some odd change. I was feeling very confident and its strange, but I felt as if God had gone shopping with me. I put the groceries in the back of the car and when I opened AB’s door, there on the floor board was something that Dustin and I had been searching for. You see someone had given him a $100 bill for gas and groceries and he lost it. It fell out of his pocket/wallet and his heart was crushed. Loosing the $100 was huge. Well, he thought it fell out while he was driving and we both searched the car top to bottom several time and just could not find it. I know that God made that $100 bill appear there. It was almost teasing me like “ha ha here I am”! I know that God hid it on purpose. He wanted me to feel stretched and submit to my husband and to trust and rely on HIM! It was the coolest feeling. It totally boosted my faith.

That was Sunday. On Monday, right before leadership, my neighbor Franz knocked on the door. He said they were having hoity toity snooty company over dinner on Wednesday and they always buy fancy salmon from Chile when they come over. Well they he had bought 4 sides of Salmon and but only were going to need 3 and because they were going out of town at the end of the week he wondered if we would like the 4th. I said of course we would love it. Thank you so much.

Well, it didn’t click till Tuesday morning, but when it did, it got all over me. I ran up to Dustin’s prayer room, knocked on his door, didn’t even wait for a response, busted in and blurted out…..”God brought meat to our door. I submitted to you, I trusted in him. I didn’t go over the $45 limit. I couldn’t afford to get meat and God brought meat to our door!”

Isn’t that awesome? God’s provision is amazing. I totally have a story. One thing we discussed at small group last night was that it is ok to want to have stories like that, but we must realize to be in a place where God will blow your socks off and will make the impossible happen, you have to be in a place where you are facing the impossible!

I say bring it on! Thank you Lord Jesus for your amazing provision!

Took My Breath Away


This past Monday, I was feeling blue. I didn't want to be at work. I wanted to be home with AB and snuggle wuggle buggle. Zuzana was online and offered to send a photo. I amlost wish she hadn't. The photo she took and sent was just a quick candid snapshot that AB happened to smile right as she clicked. I can't put an exact age on this, but she just looks so much older in this photo and it gave me a quick "flashforward" of what she would look like when she is older. You might not see it, but I do / did and it makes me sad. She is so grown!


AB and her rain gear!







Wednesday, June 17, 2009

ALL DONE!

Funds were tight, but we were determined to make the best of the time that we had off from work. Chicka got to go home for her sisters wedding, so we got to stay home and watch AB. Here is what we had planned.

Wednesday
Get off of work! Go to dinner with the Chapman family at Ziki’s and celebrate my nephew Zach turning 8. Put the kids to bed early and hang out with my parents.

Thursday
Eat breakfast with the Chapman family
Go to gravelly Point and watch the airplanes take off
Say good bye to the Chapman family house guests and kick off the first day of our “stay-cation” by taking AB to the Zoo for the first time.

Friday
We were going to do a few projects around the house. Things that we never have time to do through out our regular week. Things like paint the kitchen, clean out the shed, etc. Then we had babysitters lined up to watch AB so that we could have a real date night with dinner and a movie. Something we have never done since AB was born. We have been to dinner many times but never dinner and a movie. This was going to be spectacular. I even had 2 free movie tickets and a $25 gift certificate to a sushi restaurant.

Saturday
We were going to wake up early and hit some yard sales. Something that I love doing. It is just relaxing. Then maybe grab brunch somewhere. Then off to Brookside gardens and explore nature. And then the grand finale for the day was going to the Orioles Vs. the Braves game at Camden yards.

Sunday
Chesapeake Bay here we come. AB had a sand pail, shovel, and sand sifter ready to go.

Monday
We were going to go to Dutch Wonderland in Pennsylvania. An amusement park just for kids!

Tuesday
It was going to be an at home stay local day. Get AB a passport, go paddle boating, feed the ducks, play on the playground, get our first ever family photo, go to the library and play in the water fountain at the town square.

What we got instead was:

Wednesday night we were at Ziki’s and all was going according to plan! We were getting ready to leave the restaurant and then all of the sudden….AB threw up all over my dad in the lobby of the restaurant. We rushed home, only so that she could throw up 8 more times. Once in the car! I could see Thursday’s trip to the Zoo fading and my heart began to crush.

Thursday Dustin had to go into work that morning. AB continued to throw up and have a fever. I could see my date night on Friday start to fade. We ordered take out and had a candle lit picnic on the kitchen floor.

Friday brought us more vomit plus some diarrhea!. and a trip to CVS totaling $85 dollars. I think that is the most I have ever spent there. Dustin decided AB shouldn’t be the only one sick. He joined in too! I knew that the Orioles game was out of the question. But hey we got to watch Bolt 5 times and Elmo 10 times.

Saturday was Moose’s turn to join in. No he did not want to be left out! More vomit. More diarrhea! At one point AB said “ouch, Mommy, tummy hurts!” (thank goodness she can talk) We rushed to the sink. She did what she had to do and then looked at me and said, “Excuse me Mommy, sorry Mommy”. So sad. I came to accept that none of the great things we had planned would happen. Very heart crushing!

Sunday was my turn! Man I hate throwing up! This was the day we were supposed to be at the bay! More vomit. More diarrhea! Still have fevers!

Monday was rough cause AB was better but we were not. She kept asking for hummus, sausage and pizza. No sir re! I am not feeding that to her with the chance that she will vomit it everywhere! Poor thing.

Tuesday was bitter sweet. We started feeling better but then were depressed thinking of what we went through and that we would have to go back to work the next day. This was the day that we were going to stay local. Get AB a passport, go paddle boating, feed the ducks, play on the playground, get our first ever family photo, go to the library and play in the water fountain at the town square. We knew we did not have the energy for that or the time. I started doing laundry and disinfecting things! We did go on a little shopping spree since we didn’t spend hardly any money that week. We went to Ikea for some baskets! Target for some blinds! Container store for…well, containers, Duh! While at Target we decided to risk it and get a family photo done. AB will be 2 in a couple of weeks and we never had a family photo! We both had time off of work! Sick or not, Target Portrait Studio, HERE WE COME. Well, lets just say it didn’t go that well. A few shots into it and even after one time out session and a stern talking to, a smile and her cooperation just was not going to happen. I will leave you with the picture below that sums up our vacation. In case you are wondering, she is screaming ALL DONE! I couldn’t have summed it up any better. Yes baby, we are all done!



(In total she threw up 21 times and had a fever at one point of 103. Dusitn and I tied for second with 102) We are all well now and feel fine. We just need a vacation!

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

The 5 Million things I love about AB.

AB is turning 2 soon. Actually it is less than a month away. Holy cow! Am I doing everything right? Am I scaring her for life? Is she happy? What am I doing wrong? Should I not be so strict and let her eat more junk food? Should I make her go to bed sooner? Is 3 links of sausage, 1 piece of bacon, eggs, pancakes and strawberries, oj and milk TOO much for one breakfast?

I know some things we are doing must be right. Here is my unfinished list of the 5 million things I love about AB:

1. the way she says "i youve you"
2. the way she says "mo--o--se, whe--re A-RE you!?"
3. that she asks to go outside 100 times a day wether it be at 7:30 in the morning or 9:00 at night or pouring rain
4. that she says her bedtime prayers with me every night
5. that she adds people to her bedtime prayers sometimes
6. if she sees a heart she calls it an "i youve you"
7. that she can clearly distinguish between a circle, square and triangle
8. that she calls a rectangle cheese cause it looks like string cheese
9. that she is guinely concerned if someone is ok or not
10. that she loves to kiss
11. the way she eats a bannana
12. that she calls her milk juice
13. the time she got jealous that her baby had her balnket and she snatched it from her and said, no, that's anna's blanket
14. that she can put on her own shoes
15. that she tries to wear my shoes
16. the way she helps me sort laundry
17. the way she helps me unload the groceries. I honestly am so thankful for her helping me do that. it saves so much time.
18. the way that she asks for more. and if you aren't paying attention, adds sign language to the mix.
19. that she loves the Bible (aka Bobble)
20. that she has no fear
21. the way she loves bubble wrap
22. that she says hey bobbaw anytime she hears the phone ring
23. the way she melts my heart when she snuggles
24. the way that she says her abc's "LMNOP = elmo go pee"
25. the way that she counts to 12...I start it and she only says the even numbers
26. the way she calls the vacuum cleaner an "almost" cause when she used to be afraid of it she would say all done mommy all done and I would say almost. so now she calls it an almost
27. that she can say 4 sylybol words "ca-bi-pil-ler, ab-a-cob-bo, hed-i-cop-ter, mo-ter-cy-cle"

Friday, April 10, 2009

We are not huge fans of the Easter Bunny and Easter Egg Hunts but somethings change when you have kids. We were at Target getting her photo taken in her Easter dress and they dude gave her a bunny to hold. I knew I wasn't going to buy it, but didn't want to get into the whole conversation that Easter is not about bunnies so I let him snap the shot.

Oh my goodness, look how precious it turned out!

Friday, February 20, 2009

the cost of a one night get away

my birthday is in 2 days and this is how i am celebrating it.....

my dad travels 5 and 1/2 days a week and gets tons of points for a free hotel night so i asked him for one night not too far from home so i don't have to drive all night so i ended up getting a night in Baltimore with a room overlooking the inner harbor

her paid an additional $25 for an upgraded room, a guaranteed water view and concierge lounge access. Thanks dad!

our only cost for the room....$25 parking

I told dustin all i wanted to do was get an overnight sitter for AB (thanks Zuzka) go to the hotel, put on my pjs, crawl up into the bed, get under the fancy luxurious sheets and down comfortor and watch cable TV. (for those of you who know me well, you know that is a real treat since we do not have a TV)

I also went as far to say that I didn't even want dinner because it would waste any hotel / tv time i had so i just got back from the store feeling a little guilty for the expense incured but trying to justify it to myself and make me feel better about it...thus this post

i have never walked away from a grocery store and spent what i spent and only had to carry 2 bags away. Now mind you the bags were full but still. So here it goes

gatorade because of the long time tradition dustin and i have with gatorade and hotels 3.20
a fancy intuition razor that i always feel guilty for buying 8.99
Beef Jerky which dustin recently got me hooked on 4.99
Chocolate covered almond raspberry M&Ms 4.69
strawberries 3.49
blueberries 3.49
blackberries because I miss my PaPaw 3.49
spinach quiche so we dont have to feel bad for just eating junk 5.99
brie cheese 6.99
hummus 3.79
blue organic tortillia chips 2.50
flatbread 2.29
Melba toast 3.19

total with tax and all that 58.44 yieks!!!! but if you figure a fancy steak dinner might cost the same...i would rather be in bed in my pjs!

So here is to my 29th Birthday! Happy Birthday Me!

Thursday, February 5, 2009

50 things I love about Dustin....

Today is my 9th wedding anniversary! Here are 50 things I love about Dustin.


He tolerates my quirkiness.

He knows all my stories and doesn’t get tired of hearing them over and over.

He bought the house I picked out, no questions asked.

He is the best secret keeper.

He cleans up vomit very well.

He honors me by not watching shows on TV or movies that feature scantily clad/seductive women.

He is the world’s best Poppy and coached our baby into saying Bible, Jesus, Amen and Church before she was 18 months old.

He doesn’t love football and does not have to watch every game!

He lets me change my mind at the last minute.

He is terrific around the house and only uses duct tape as a very last resort! I do not think there is anything that he cannot fix.

He will not talk to me in the morning until he has had his prayer time and talked to God first.

He always reminds me of our conversations that we have at 1AM when I am asleep (and he knows that) but he is too excited about something to wait until I wake up the next day.

He lets me take care of his calendar and meetings!

He pushes me to be who I need to be.

He is always supportive of my desires.

He drives late into the night on road trips. (Even if his reasoning is because I fell asleep while driving over 6 years ago and he is still scared!)

He decorates the outside of the house at Christmas time….EVERY YEAR! (we won’t mention that it is the redneck blow up stuff)

He is not high maintenance when it comes to dinner. His only request is that there is meat and that the entire meal is not in one pot.

He lets me vent when I am stressed and tells me when to stop.

He doesn’t care that my body has changed after the birth of a baby. If it does bother him he doesn’t say anything.

He has so much drive and passion.

He has so much vision.

He protects me from things I do not need to hear.

He insists on worship music being played in our house 24/7.

He will not let Anna Beth and I leave the house in the mornings until he prays over us and he prays for AB every night before she goes to bed too!

He takes care of any IT/nerdy computer related issues I have.

He sends me just because flowers.

He carries the diaper bag.

He lets me get Taco Bell even though we would much prefer somewhere else.

He once sent me flowers and chocolate 3 days into his first international trip without me because he was sure I would be missing him by then. I was missing him before he even made it through security.

He has an obedient heart towards God. He chooses obedience over sacrifice EVERYtime.

He will not compromise his morals, standards and integrity….even if it takes longer, cost more, and isn’t exactly what he wanted to do.

He still gets my door for me.

He can make me feel so small and safe and protected, just by putting his hand on my back right in-between my shoulder blades.

The way he leads me into a room or event with his hand on the small of my back.

His big crooked front tooth!

When he makes me laugh.

When he sends me a random text message to encourage my day.

The way he straightens my engagement ring if it is not directly centered when he is holding my hand.

The way he gets excited about going on a big vacation.

The way he will take the fortune out of his cookie and then let me eat it when no one is looking.

The way he helps me make memories and reminds me to slow down and enjoy the little things.

The way he can be a little girly when it comes to candles and decorating.

When he doesn’t judge me if I eat a late night snack.

He lets me get my nails done if I wanted to and lets me get my house cleaned but we just can’t find someone who can do it as well as I can.

The way he celebrates small things with me and gets excited too (i.e. clean sheet day, Anna saying Poo Poo)

When he plays with Anna he gets down on the floor at her level.

When he gives me a massage (few and far between but well worth the wait)

When he goes to the grocery store with me. The trips are shorter and more expensive but I always welcome the company.

That he does the bills and money stuff so I do not have to worry with it. I did the first 5 years of our marriage and will probably offer to do it starting next year. I also love that he taught me how to do bills.

I love you Dustin!

Monday, February 2, 2009

Who am I?

I do not know who I am. I mean...I know who I am but I do not know WHO I AM. I start having these thoughts every year around my birthday when people ask what I want to do for that day. I think that how you celebrate your birthday says a lot about who you are. And for the past gazillion birthdays, I always feel a little let down and unhappy with the way I chose to celebrate it. Last year, all I wanted for my birthday was the perfect day. I took the day off of work, had my house cleaned, got my nails and hair done, had a massage, and then wanted to go out for dinner. The cleaners did a crappy job, I smudged my nails, the hair lady had a bad attitude and I was cold during the whole massage. By the time I was ready to go to dinner, the baby was already ready for bed...so we just ordered in and went to bed.

This year I know that I want to focus relationships. Last year a day by myself was far from perfect.

I need to know who I am. This year I want to explore and find out more about myself. I hate museums. I hate poetry. I love getting messy. I love to go barefoot. My goal is that in a year and 20 days (my 30th birthday) I will know who I am. There will be a lot of experimenting and trials and list making but I will know who I am. And the sooner I know who I am, the sooner I will be able to relax and be who I am. (not sure if that makes sense or not but it totally makes sense to me)

Another thing that has come up since I am a year away from 30 is if I should be working on a list of things I want to do before I turn 30 and my dear BFF Su was so wise to point out to me that I really should make a list of things that I have already done before I turn 30. That was very encouraging. I am a very successful person and have accomplished many things. I do not need to live in regret or in fear of not living a good enough life. I think I will make both lists.

Just some ramblings that I need to get out of my head before I start my week at a j0b that I no longer like....maybe that is something to add to the list.

Happy Monday!

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

just because flowers are the best kind of flowers ever

Dustin sent me flowers last Friday. Just because. No anniversary. No birthday. No special event. No make ups to be done (worst reason for flowers and it must be known that Dustin has never sent make up flowers...I don't think there has ever been a reason to make up)

The note said this...."You AMAZE me! You just bought your first house, got your biggest bonus, been successful at Everything you touch and are still head over heels in love with me? That's AMAZING!"

I am still head over heels in love with him. In a couple of weeks we will have been married 9 years.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Sweet Suds



Today is a monumental day...I, Lori Hedrick, can retire my portable dishwasher (my 2 hands) and use a real deal dishwasher! Hip Hip Hooray!

In my 9 years of marriage, the only place that we lived that had a dishwasher was Fireside apartments and that was just for one year. Now I own a house that has a dishwasher. I actually own a dishwasher that has a house!

Bring on the dirty dishes!

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

the cost of humility....$100 in cash

So this morning I learned a valuable lesson at the expense of everyone in my house...sorry AB, Dustin and Zuzka.

A few months ago, Dustin and I were given $200 cash by someone because they said that God told them to give it to us. That money could not have come at a better time. We were trying to save up the earnest money for our house and Dustin had put us on a spending freeze. It was a couple of days before we were going to be paid and we just needed something to hold us over for the 3 basics…diapers, wipes and milk. That money was a true God-send. On the outside of the envelope I wrote two things. “God will provide” and “He makes a way.” I want those two truths to be remembered always by anyone who opens the envelope! It always makes me pause and thank Him for coming through.

From that day forward, we decided to make a rule…we will always keep $200 cash on hand and if we need to use something…for a necessity…NOT for bagel money or something else frivolous…we will replace it the next payday so that we will always have the $200 base.

Fast forward to yesterday….we are trying to pay the tuition for Zuzka and other new homeowner expenses that just pop up and Dustin put us on a spending freeze again and we would just rely on the emergency fund till Friday. He had to use about $100 for new locks and keys for the new house and some caulk to seal up some air leaks. He told me that there was $100 left and I could use it for groceries.

This is where my lesson begins…He said that he handed me the envelope. I remember him not handing it to me but rather placing it on top of the yellow dresser. So this morning, on my way out the door, I went to grab the cash so that I could stop on the way home. Grocery shopping is so much easier with out a baby. I looked everywhere and I couldn’t find the envelope. I asked Dustin and he insisted that he handed it to me and I insisted that he didn’t. I looked on top of the yellow dresser, in his coat pockets, his jeans pockets, my pants pockets, my purse and the diaper bag. The envelope was NO WHERE to be found.

Poor Zuzka sat on the couch as I made snide remarks like, “Anna we will get you some more milk as soon as mommy finds the grocery money” and Dustin calmly told me I need to work on my memory which made me say more snide remarks like, “IF I find the money, I will admit I am wrong and apologize for this…implying that if HE found the money he had better do the same”! It was way too much conversation for 7:45 in the morning, even if the words weren’t stressed or tense words, it was just way too much.

I was really stressed. If I didn’t get that $100 back then there wouldn’t be any groceries until Friday and Anna only had one and a half sippy cups worth of milk left.

As I got in the car, I prayed that the Holy Spirit would show me where the envelope was.

Immediately, my mind went to last night’s leadership and logistics meeting. Usually they are at our house but due to the move, this one was at Fidelis’ house. Anna was way out of character and was just being busy and cranky. She had emptied her diaper bag and I put everything back in, but maybe I missed something, so I text Fidelis and asked him when he got home from work if he could just look under his couch for a small white envelope with some writing on the outside and $100 cash inside. He called me back within 5 minutes. I thought he was already at work so was thrilled when he told me he was at home. I was on the phone with him as he began looking for the envelope. The next thing that happened was he leaned down and said he had found something and on the outside of it there was writing that said “God will provide” and “He makes a way.” Just to hear someone say those two truths out loud made my heart sink. #1 God will provide and make a way but #2 how could I be so stress and so ugly about such a small issue that DUH! God will provide and make away! I quickly thanked him for finding it and arranged the time I would pick it up and called Dustin to apologize. Of course he didn’t answer. I wouldn’t have answered me either. I called Zuzka and she answered. I apologized to her and then asked if she could give the phone to Dustin. I apologized to him as well.

I really need to find a way to deal with this stress that I am experiencing. I really need to find a way to channel my frustrations. Tomorrow is a new day and a fresh start. I just hope I can still salvage today.

Monday, January 12, 2009

40 minutes looking for socks and the joys of owning a home

It's a new year and a fresh start...at least that is what my pastor keeps saying. I am ready for a fresh start. We bought a house on January 5th and moved in on the 10th. My life has been nonstop high speed crazy since then.

Thursday I had the cleaners out to give the empty house a good scrub. We also had the exterminator come out that afternoon as well. Dustin and I have a rule about bugs...whoever finds it kills it unless we can convince the dog to take a shot at it. He hates bugs more than I and I don't like them too much myself. Might as well have a fresh start for $125 and avoid bugs all together. Friday was the next round of service people. We had the air ducts cleared for the sake of Dustin's allergies and because I made the mistake of watching the TV show How Clean is Your House, we got the carpet cleaned too.

While we were moving (HUGE thanks to the almost 20 Terrific Tapestry people that came out to help in the rain and hail) Dustin fell and cracked his rib...during the first part of the morning.

I am beginning to learn a lot about home-ownership. We paid $195 for the cleaners to clean an empty house...they left old lipstick kisses on windows untouched, cob webs in the bed room, grease on the stove, dead bugs on the window seal...and so on. The bug guy tried to get us locked into a quarterly agreement. The air duct person didn't put the HVAC unit back together properly and now it won't cut off and and our bedroom is 85 degrees and the carpet people broke the valve on our outside faucet and left the water running and we did not discover it until last night.

On top of that....AB hates the new house. She hates her new room. She screams if we put her on the floor to walk around. I tried to unpack a couple of boxes into a closet and she kept closing the door every time I would walk away to grab the next box. Last night when we pulled into the driveway, AB recognized the house and screamed NOOOOoooooooo! and started crying. We then called BopBaw who sang Diamonds on the Souls of Her Shoes which seemed to calm her down.

Moose doesn't know which way is up and yesterday when I put him in his crate he was hesitant and when I got home from church I found out why...he had gotten sick all in his crate. Poor dog.

This morning I was 40 minutes late for work looking for a pair of socks. Needless to say, I ended up at work late with no socks. I am trying to stay positive and trying to find a way to channel my frustrations...for AB it is screaming, moose is choosing diarrhea, I might just choose blogging. I will let you know how that works...you will just have to keep checking back!

This is a photo of us the day we closed on the house. it's not my favortie photo but life is too short to worry about what you look like. This is what it looked like and that is that.