Friday, February 20, 2009

the cost of a one night get away

my birthday is in 2 days and this is how i am celebrating it.....

my dad travels 5 and 1/2 days a week and gets tons of points for a free hotel night so i asked him for one night not too far from home so i don't have to drive all night so i ended up getting a night in Baltimore with a room overlooking the inner harbor

her paid an additional $25 for an upgraded room, a guaranteed water view and concierge lounge access. Thanks dad!

our only cost for the room....$25 parking

I told dustin all i wanted to do was get an overnight sitter for AB (thanks Zuzka) go to the hotel, put on my pjs, crawl up into the bed, get under the fancy luxurious sheets and down comfortor and watch cable TV. (for those of you who know me well, you know that is a real treat since we do not have a TV)

I also went as far to say that I didn't even want dinner because it would waste any hotel / tv time i had so i just got back from the store feeling a little guilty for the expense incured but trying to justify it to myself and make me feel better about it...thus this post

i have never walked away from a grocery store and spent what i spent and only had to carry 2 bags away. Now mind you the bags were full but still. So here it goes

gatorade because of the long time tradition dustin and i have with gatorade and hotels 3.20
a fancy intuition razor that i always feel guilty for buying 8.99
Beef Jerky which dustin recently got me hooked on 4.99
Chocolate covered almond raspberry M&Ms 4.69
strawberries 3.49
blueberries 3.49
blackberries because I miss my PaPaw 3.49
spinach quiche so we dont have to feel bad for just eating junk 5.99
brie cheese 6.99
hummus 3.79
blue organic tortillia chips 2.50
flatbread 2.29
Melba toast 3.19

total with tax and all that 58.44 yieks!!!! but if you figure a fancy steak dinner might cost the same...i would rather be in bed in my pjs!

So here is to my 29th Birthday! Happy Birthday Me!

Thursday, February 5, 2009

50 things I love about Dustin....

Today is my 9th wedding anniversary! Here are 50 things I love about Dustin.


He tolerates my quirkiness.

He knows all my stories and doesn’t get tired of hearing them over and over.

He bought the house I picked out, no questions asked.

He is the best secret keeper.

He cleans up vomit very well.

He honors me by not watching shows on TV or movies that feature scantily clad/seductive women.

He is the world’s best Poppy and coached our baby into saying Bible, Jesus, Amen and Church before she was 18 months old.

He doesn’t love football and does not have to watch every game!

He lets me change my mind at the last minute.

He is terrific around the house and only uses duct tape as a very last resort! I do not think there is anything that he cannot fix.

He will not talk to me in the morning until he has had his prayer time and talked to God first.

He always reminds me of our conversations that we have at 1AM when I am asleep (and he knows that) but he is too excited about something to wait until I wake up the next day.

He lets me take care of his calendar and meetings!

He pushes me to be who I need to be.

He is always supportive of my desires.

He drives late into the night on road trips. (Even if his reasoning is because I fell asleep while driving over 6 years ago and he is still scared!)

He decorates the outside of the house at Christmas time….EVERY YEAR! (we won’t mention that it is the redneck blow up stuff)

He is not high maintenance when it comes to dinner. His only request is that there is meat and that the entire meal is not in one pot.

He lets me vent when I am stressed and tells me when to stop.

He doesn’t care that my body has changed after the birth of a baby. If it does bother him he doesn’t say anything.

He has so much drive and passion.

He has so much vision.

He protects me from things I do not need to hear.

He insists on worship music being played in our house 24/7.

He will not let Anna Beth and I leave the house in the mornings until he prays over us and he prays for AB every night before she goes to bed too!

He takes care of any IT/nerdy computer related issues I have.

He sends me just because flowers.

He carries the diaper bag.

He lets me get Taco Bell even though we would much prefer somewhere else.

He once sent me flowers and chocolate 3 days into his first international trip without me because he was sure I would be missing him by then. I was missing him before he even made it through security.

He has an obedient heart towards God. He chooses obedience over sacrifice EVERYtime.

He will not compromise his morals, standards and integrity….even if it takes longer, cost more, and isn’t exactly what he wanted to do.

He still gets my door for me.

He can make me feel so small and safe and protected, just by putting his hand on my back right in-between my shoulder blades.

The way he leads me into a room or event with his hand on the small of my back.

His big crooked front tooth!

When he makes me laugh.

When he sends me a random text message to encourage my day.

The way he straightens my engagement ring if it is not directly centered when he is holding my hand.

The way he gets excited about going on a big vacation.

The way he will take the fortune out of his cookie and then let me eat it when no one is looking.

The way he helps me make memories and reminds me to slow down and enjoy the little things.

The way he can be a little girly when it comes to candles and decorating.

When he doesn’t judge me if I eat a late night snack.

He lets me get my nails done if I wanted to and lets me get my house cleaned but we just can’t find someone who can do it as well as I can.

The way he celebrates small things with me and gets excited too (i.e. clean sheet day, Anna saying Poo Poo)

When he plays with Anna he gets down on the floor at her level.

When he gives me a massage (few and far between but well worth the wait)

When he goes to the grocery store with me. The trips are shorter and more expensive but I always welcome the company.

That he does the bills and money stuff so I do not have to worry with it. I did the first 5 years of our marriage and will probably offer to do it starting next year. I also love that he taught me how to do bills.

I love you Dustin!

Monday, February 2, 2009

Who am I?

I do not know who I am. I mean...I know who I am but I do not know WHO I AM. I start having these thoughts every year around my birthday when people ask what I want to do for that day. I think that how you celebrate your birthday says a lot about who you are. And for the past gazillion birthdays, I always feel a little let down and unhappy with the way I chose to celebrate it. Last year, all I wanted for my birthday was the perfect day. I took the day off of work, had my house cleaned, got my nails and hair done, had a massage, and then wanted to go out for dinner. The cleaners did a crappy job, I smudged my nails, the hair lady had a bad attitude and I was cold during the whole massage. By the time I was ready to go to dinner, the baby was already ready for bed...so we just ordered in and went to bed.

This year I know that I want to focus relationships. Last year a day by myself was far from perfect.

I need to know who I am. This year I want to explore and find out more about myself. I hate museums. I hate poetry. I love getting messy. I love to go barefoot. My goal is that in a year and 20 days (my 30th birthday) I will know who I am. There will be a lot of experimenting and trials and list making but I will know who I am. And the sooner I know who I am, the sooner I will be able to relax and be who I am. (not sure if that makes sense or not but it totally makes sense to me)

Another thing that has come up since I am a year away from 30 is if I should be working on a list of things I want to do before I turn 30 and my dear BFF Su was so wise to point out to me that I really should make a list of things that I have already done before I turn 30. That was very encouraging. I am a very successful person and have accomplished many things. I do not need to live in regret or in fear of not living a good enough life. I think I will make both lists.

Just some ramblings that I need to get out of my head before I start my week at a j0b that I no longer like....maybe that is something to add to the list.

Happy Monday!